Another two year milestone

Back in 1981 when I first met Mike and I talked myself into moving to California with him because I was head over heels in love and already a big fan of travel,  I told myself and my parents I would go to California for two years - for the adventure of it all. I was a Michigan family girl and the idea of leaving forever was not digestible at the time. 

As it turned out, Mike and I were good together and after two years, instead of going home to Michigan, we decided to get married.

That was a life changing two year milestone!

On December 4, 2018, in the midst of getting to know my 2nd grandchild and discovering the lovely town of McMinnville, OR, I had no choice but to experience another two year milestone.  Mike is gone. I took a few days off to let the tears flow and the memories, joys and regrets bubble up.

For two years I’ve been through an astounding and intense range of emotions that I could never have predicted - being the “strong” person that I was during his illness.  

I now understand I have reached a fence in my journey through life. 

I am on a course blocked by this life changing fence - the loss of my partner. After two years I have one leg lifted up over the top of the fence and resting on the ground on the uphill side looking forward to the future. 

My other leg - the one that currently holds my weight - has not started over the fence yet. Not ready to leave the past. 

My past will be with me always.  I treasure it. I’ll continue this travel blog so I can communicate and remember my whereabouts.

My future is a work in progress and I am starting a different blog to write about it. The posts will be regular, short enough to read in a minute or two (yes, I know, I’ve been sharing the long story and I realize a shorter post will be easier for you, my reader, to digest) and different than just a travelogue.  

In addition, being the open person I am, I will be sharing deep thoughts about life in general as I make my way past the fence and into whatever life has in store for me. 

I’m writing a book and sending you all the preview excerpts in SHORT story format as it develops.  

Happy reading. Find this new blog at:

www.TravelingSoloButNotAlone.wordpress.com

I can’t wait to see what happens next!